Second Chances

The Test He Put Away · Chapter 4 of 6

Chapter 4

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Anna had kept Daniel’s old laptop for six years.

She had never opened it after his memorial service.

Not because she didn’t know the password.

Because she did.

That was what frightened her.

“I knew there were videos,” she said while we crossed the upstairs hallway toward the guest suite. “Daniel made them for Caleb.”

“How many?”

“I don’t know.”

“You never watched them?”

“Two.”

“Why only two?”

She stopped outside the bedroom.

“Because the second one was Daniel teaching our son how to tie a tie.”

Her eyes filled.

“He kept laughing because he was holding a baby who couldn’t even sit up by himself, and he was talking like they were going somewhere together.”

I said nothing.

“There are some kinds of grief you survive by controlling when you touch them,” Anna whispered.

I understood that better than she knew.

The laptop was wrapped in an old gray sweatshirt at the bottom of her suitcase.

A fifteen-inch machine with a cracked corner.

She set it on the desk.

The battery was dead.

Marcus found a compatible charger in the estate office.

Twenty minutes later, the screen came alive.

The desktop background appeared.

Daniel.

Anna.

A newborn Caleb asleep on Daniel’s chest.

My cousin looked younger than I remembered.

Not because he was young.

Because he was happy.

I had forgotten that expression.

Anna typed the password.

CALEB0912.

A folder sat in the center of the desktop.

FOR MY BOY.

Inside were twenty-seven videos.

Caleb had apparently watched several years earlier while staying with Anna’s sister.

One file was named BLUE BOOK.

Anna covered her mouth.

I clicked it.

Daniel appeared on-screen.

He was sitting in their old apartment.

No blood.

No fear.

This had been recorded before Lucia died.

Caleb was an infant in a carrier beside him.

Daniel looked directly into the camera.

“Hey, buddy.”

His voice hit me like something physical.

Six years.

I had not heard it in six years.

“If you’re watching this, you’re probably old enough to know your dad worried about stupid things.”

He smiled.

Anna began crying.

“I worry about fire alarms. Tires. Whether your mom locks the windows. Whether you’ll inherit my heart.”

His smile faded slightly.

“And I worry that someday my work might follow me home.”

I leaned closer.

Daniel glanced toward baby Caleb.

“So I’m making backups. Not of business. Nothing dangerous. Just things that prove where I was and who I talked to, in case someone ever tries to rewrite me.”

My throat tightened.

Daniel had known.

Not the specific betrayal perhaps.

But enough.

He lifted a small blue notebook.

“This is my boring book.”

Caleb giggled from the carrier.

Daniel smiled.

“See? Even you agree.”

He opened it.

“Dates. Meetings. Mileage. Calls. Your mother says I’m obsessive.”

Anna whispered, “I did.”

Daniel continued.

“If I ever lose it, I keep a spare copy somewhere ridiculously dramatic.”

He pointed behind him.

The apartment wall.

“The loose panel behind the radiator.”

Anna stared.

“I never knew.”

Daniel leaned toward the camera.

“Caleb, if you’re twelve and using this information to hide candy from your mother, I deny responsibility.”

The video ended.

For several seconds, none of us spoke.

Then I said, “Does the apartment still exist?”

“Yes.”

“Who owns it?”

“I don’t know.”

Marcus was already checking.

Seven minutes later, he had an address and current owner.

The building had been sold twice.

The apartment was occupied by a retired schoolteacher.

At four thirty in the morning, we drove to Queens.

Anna insisted on coming.

I objected.

She ignored me.

I was beginning to understand why Daniel loved her.

Mrs. Evelyn Carter opened the apartment door holding a baseball bat.

Marcus looked at me.

I looked at him.

Neither of us laughed.

At seventy-two, Mrs. Carter was unimpressed by suits, security men, or the fact that four black vehicles had stopped outside her building before dawn.

“You’re not police.”

“No, ma’am.”

“Then you need a warrant?”

“No.”

“Good. Because you don’t have one.”

Anna stepped forward.

“I used to live here.”

Mrs. Carter looked at her.

“Third bedroom?”

“Yes.”

“With the ugly radiator?”

Anna almost smiled.

“Yes.”

Ten minutes later, Mrs. Carter let us in after Anna showed old photographs proving she had lived there.

The loose panel remained.

Barely.

It had been painted over twice.

Marcus used a pocketknife around the edges.

The panel came free.

Inside was dust.

An old cable.

A child’s plastic dinosaur.

And a blue notebook sealed inside a freezer bag.

Anna made a sound between laughter and a sob.

I pulled it out.

Daniel’s handwriting filled every page.

Dates.

Times.

Meetings.

License plates.

Phone numbers.

The final fifteen pages were different.

Names were circled.

Victor’s appeared repeatedly.

So did the initials R.S.

“What does that mean?” Anna asked.

“I don’t know.”

Then I found Lucia’s name.

Three days before she died.

Lucia says Victor asked about Friday dinner route. Why?

Two days before.

Saw V.S. meeting R.S. at Harbor 9. Said coincidence. Don’t believe him.

The day before.

Changed Lucia route. Told only Matteo, me, Victor.

My hands started shaking.

Three people.

Only three knew.

Me.

Daniel.

Victor.

The page after Lucia died was blank except for one sentence written hard enough to tear the paper.

It was Victor.

Anna closed her eyes.

I couldn’t move.

For six years, I had blamed the wrong man.

More than that.

I had trusted the right man’s murderer.

My phone vibrated.

Marcus answered his instead.

He listened.

His face changed.

“What?”

He lowered the phone.

“The device in your study stopped transmitting.”

“They know.”

“Yes.”

“Victor?”

“We don’t know.”

I closed the notebook.

“We go to the bank.”

First Atlantic opened at nine.

Box 417 was still registered under Daniel’s name.

Access should have required court paperwork.

Money solved the delay.

At 10:23, Anna and I entered a private room with the safe-deposit box between us.

Inside was no money.

No jewelry.

No weapon.

Only a flash drive.

A photograph of Anna holding baby Caleb.

And an envelope.

On the front, in Daniel’s handwriting:

MATT.

I stopped breathing.

Anna touched my arm.

“Open it.”

Inside was a letter.

Matteo,

If you’re reading this, something went wrong.

First: I did not betray you.

Second: Lucia was not random.

Third: Victor Santi is working with someone named Raymond Shaw through Harbor Logistics. I don’t know their full plan, but they’ve been moving money and information for months.

If Lucia is hurt before I get this to you, do not trust the records. Someone has my access credentials.

I know you. You’ll be angry. Anger will tell you to move fast.

Don’t.

You’ve always thought your worst quality was your temper.

It isn’t.

It’s that when someone hurts you, you’d rather believe the first explanation than admit you trusted the wrong person.

I hated him for that sentence.

Because it was true.

The letter continued.

There’s one more thing.

Anna is pregnant.

You don’t know her, because I wanted one part of my life that belonged only to me.

If I don’t make it through this, keep them out of our world.

Please.

Not as a boss.

As my brother.

Technically cousin, but you know that never mattered.

Tell my kid I wasn’t perfect.

But tell him I loved him before I knew his name.

Daniel

I read the final line three times.

Anna was openly crying now.

I pressed the heel of my hand against my eyes.

I had attended hundreds of meetings without emotion.

Buried friends.

Ordered men removed from positions they thought made them untouchable.

Faced judges, enemies, journalists, investigators.

A dead man’s handwriting defeated me.

“I’m sorry,” I whispered.

Anna shook her head.

“I’m not the one you owe that to.”

“I know.”

She touched the letter.

“He called you his brother.”

My throat closed.

“I called him a traitor.”

“You didn’t know.”

“I chose not to know.”

That distinction mattered.

The flash drive contained financial records.

Enough to show Victor had transferred money through Harbor Logistics.

Enough to show someone had paid for information about Lucia’s movements.

Enough to destroy the story I had believed.

But one file was newer than everything else.

Recorded twelve days after Lucia’s death.

A video.

Daniel appeared on-screen.

He was pale.

His shoulder was bandaged.

He looked directly into the camera.

“Matt, if you get this, I’m going to try to meet an investigator tonight.”

Anna gripped the table.

Daniel continued.

“Victor knows I survived.”

My blood chilled.

“If I disappear, don’t come after Anna. Don’t drag her into this.”

He paused, breathing hard.

“And there’s something else.”

A noise sounded off-camera.

Daniel looked toward it.

Then back.

“Raymond Shaw isn’t the top.”

My pulse jumped.

“He answers to someone inside the family.”

The video shook as Daniel picked up the camera.

“I think—”

The recording ended.

Anna stared at the black screen.

“Inside what family?”

I knew.

Mine.

My phone rang.

Marcus.

I answered.

“What?”

His voice was tight.

“Boss, we have a problem.”

“Victor?”

“No.”

“What?”

“Caleb is gone.”

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